Not to be emo, I guess we all have our moments...

Why do the most upsetting things happen to us when we are the weakest? Or is it that upsetting things happen to us because we are weak?

I want to see what I want to see.
Not see what I don't want to see.
Put my fears in the back of my mind.
I want to live a happy and full life, with no worries.
If our lives are our own, why do we let people shake us?

Living and life are two of the most beautiful things, but with roses come thorns and with every passing day we creep closer to death.

It really sucks when you realize something you never want to know.
The smallest things can press on you so hard, it is almost like you can't breath.
Have you ever noticed we don't usually ask the questions we know will turn out negative?
I think it is because those are usually the questions we need the answers to the most.

AB

Yeah, I said drinking games. ;)

Sometimes... the best solution for your frustrations = drinking games.

Yes

Yes, you heard me right. Do my words make no sense? Life has been so complicated with..
Work
Bills :/
boyfriend
boys that are friends that want to be your boyfriend
family
I think my list could continue on for longer than you are willing to read, I will stop here.
It is good to cut loose and do something for yourself. I have always told myself that stressing out is a waste of time and energy. Nothing will get accomplished when you are sitting and crying, pulling your hair out(unless you are going for the balding look), or taking out your anger at someone else. If you can fix your problem now, DO IT. If it takes time and you have to wait a day.. two days... even a week. Then put those things in the back of your mind. Do it when you CAN do something about it. Not saying procrastinate. Just... give your mind and body a moment to breath, and you will feel the difference.

Waking up at random hours of the night is pretty exciting. :) I will try to make sure I don't wait so long for another post. Work is hectic!

AB

Temptations

Well, my day has been exceptionally ordinary today. Only one thought has really crossed my mind, and I am unsure how to deal with it mentally... although I know how I will deal with it physically.
You see, I am in a pretty serious relationship with a guy I can actually say I love. I am a little upset with myself though... because sometimes I really wonder if I am missing out too much. I have been asked by several guys, in the past few years, if I wanted to date. To tell you the truth it has been tempting... After years of dating one person sometimes I think they forget that you still want to go out and have fun. Go see a movie, go have dinner or just go out in general and have a good time. The affection I wish we have in our relationship is not really there anymore. When someone comes along that shows a great amount of interest in you, is it wrong for it to be tempting?
I know I will not act on any of the gestures that have been asked of me. Even though sometimes I feel that our relationship is going downhill, there are still times that when I look at him I feel as thought I could never be happier with anyone else.

That's a wrap for tonight. :)

AB

Daydreaming with Reality

Why do we continue the actions that only cause us more trouble for ourselves. Not even only trouble for ourselves, but for others in our lives.

After I had done multiple actions that would, could, will and should get me in some deep shit... I still find myself in the same situations. Maybe I continue because I am not being punished for the wrong I have done. I keep on doing these things because I like the excitement in how different they are from my normal life.

Although I am not being punished by an outside party, I still find myself being punished. I'm in a constant worry that what I have done wrong will come back at me. I know that in someway these actions will circulate and smack me in the face. I guess the only thing I can do for myself is make the choice to stop. I've decided today is the day. :)

Today...
Woke up early +
Made breakfast +
30 minute nap (I nap too much) -
House work +
Exercise +
Now to make a light dinner ++

Signing out <3

Allablog

Making Circles

I've been thinking a lot more lately then what is probably good for my heath.

Family, friends, love & relationships.

From what I have learned in my short time being alive, family will always be the people you can rely and depend on most. At least in my situation. Not saying that my friends and serious relationship can not be dependable. Just that through thick and thin times your blood will have your back, or at least won't lead you blind.

Friends... the people you tell your problems and secrets and hope they keep them to themselves. This area is for now my second largest issue at hand and one of the reasons for me making this blog. As of this moment I feel as though I don't have that friend that I can tell my secrets and stories. I need a place to write them down and get them out of my head and off of my shoulders.

Relationships are one of the things that confuse me most in life. All are different, all have their own moral guidelines. Bleh... they are stressful and wonderful at the same time. Make you fulfilled and empty. I have always had this image of love being something that always makes you happy, but it is more complicated than what you are told. Relationships can't always be perfect.

For my simple day...
Woke up
Watched Never Been Kissed
Made lunch
Wrote some friends
Took a nap
Went for a run
Ate dinner
Blog
Now I plan on some house work and a night time walk

Thanks for reading :)

Allablog <3